I’m in the fourth month of my pregnancy and this is my first “Mommy Blog”. Never thought I’d put my journey into words for the world to read but here I am. The first three months were a very emotional ride. Knowing that I’m carrying a life, realizing that now I’m responsible for TWO, change in the diet, hating my favorite food, nausea, mood swings and trying to adjust in my new body that’s constantly bloating-deflating-increasing. Like any other new mom-to-be, I won’t lie, I did check my tummy to see if there’s a baby bump but couldn’t see anything for I’m already a chubby girl with a food bump.
Every night, I and my husband would switch on some good shows or movies. These days we’ve been watching Young Sheldon. I love that boy!! The usual is that we watch 4-5 episodes per night and doze off but lately, I’ve started to FEEL something that I initially thought is just in my head but nooooooo…it’s for real. THE BABY MOVES.
So, I never really felt my tummy. I did touch it but never really pressed to check where exactly the baby could be. I got this idea of locating the little one after the ultrasound. Since now I knew I could touch and feel (maybe), I tried. OH! There is the baby (hopefully). I did feel something and just moved my hand away and slept in disbelief. It was after that night till today I can touch and feel where the little one is.
AND, *god bless my baby* I can also feel the movement. There is a feeling of something is moving inside me. It’s a sweet ticklish pain. It’s like a small FISH is inside moving from left to right & left again and now I know where the baby would be without even touching. Taking my husband’s hand on the spot, he goes like “ooooooooh” and moves his hand. He thinks he might hurt him/her. Awww.
For the first time, I felt this, honestly, I was a bit worried about what is going on inside me but now these little “fishy” movements (as I like to call them) is a part of me that I wait for all the time. Wondering if my insides are a good enough playground.
PS: I am totally feeling that ticklish pinching right now and I’m short of words.